Lame Excuse Number 5

"I had to pick up lunch for everyone at work"...when I asked what took him so long, as my newborn son and I stood freezing on the meridian on Telegraph Road while my truck was broken down in the left lane, stopping cars, nearly causing accidents....The police officer was flabbergasted...I got in my ex's car and it reeked of fast food, Wendy's I think, they got his order wrong...he had a lot of people to get lunch for...WTF???? And I wondered...and wondered some more...who is this man that I married? Who does this to their wife and newborn child? Fortunately, the police officer let us sit in his car while we waited, and waited, and waited some more. Over 45 minutes it took him to get to us when it should have been no more than 7 minutes away. Nice, dear husband of mine. Hope his french fries were cold.

Revelation Number 2

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Neil Gaiman I've heard those words before.....and they do just that....rip you apart.....but then one day I realized, if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person...how amazing will it be when the right one comes along? I can only imagine...

Revelation Number 1

It suddenly hit me that I do indeed deserve so much more than what I used to think was good enough. Good enough just isn't....not for me, not anymore. I don't know why I have put up with so much shit in my life and I don't know what managed to make me finally realize it, but deep down inside, somehow, I knew this day would come. And oh, what a day it is.......amazing when you suddenly realize your true worth. Wow!